I still feel guilty for what happened almost 3 years ago... he didn´t deserve it
I learned so much from him and I didn´t even have time to say "thank you"


We were young, a bunch of fools, however we knew it was wrong.
I can´t think what would have happened if we had tried to stop him, at least we could have tried


It was so funny to see how he was ruinning his life and to laugh about it (sarcasm), and we dared to call ourselves friends...


I´m sorry, you deserved something better...

I feel I´m pushin people away and don´t know why... Loneliness feels comfortable but I don´t know...


I give up really easily on relationships, it doesn´t matter if they are friends  or family or whatever, I used to believe some relationships would last, but not anymore... I know sooner or later they won´t be there, that´s I want to learn to live alone (by alone I mean, not being dependant of anyone else).


But as time goes by I realize it´s not possible, we´ll always need at least one person, somebody to talk, to feel connected, to feel restrained.


I know it´s a silly idea, maybe sellfish, but I don´t want to be worried about it anymore, about what can happen if suddenly comes the day in which I really need someone, but nobedy´s there...

I feel tired, I feel I won´t be happy unless I leave...


I want to go away from here, to be able to leave all the things I have and start my life all over again, to press the reset button.
I don´t know how to deal with life, I don´t know how to face my past, or escape from it.
I almost self injure the other day, I don´t even remember why I wanted to do it, it felt necessary, it calms me down, it makes me remember I´m breathing...
The idea of leaving is the only thing I keep in mind, I want to find something that makes a difference...